I wasn’t going to share this, however, I have always considered myself a mental health advocate and a firm believer in people being able to talk about it.
In the past couple of months, my anxiety has been at an all-time high. I have a lot going on with my mental health. This includes random anxiety attacks which I cannot predict which causes me lots of distress at the time.
Sometimes a trigger for an anxiety attack can be crowds of people. Tonight at about 9pm, I was standing at a bus stop with my Dad after coming out of the cinema waiting for the bus home.
There were people everywhere when I felt that oh too familiar rush to the heart, the temperature and the watching everyone around me thinking they were out to harm me.
Of course, this probably wasn’t the case but anxiety listens to no one. My best option when I’m having an anxiety attack is to get out of that situation. I was unable to do that at this point so I resulted trying to find my own standing place where I could tune into the music on my iPod and find a mental place to calm down.
Now, just because you can’t see mental health, doesn’t mean it isn’t there. What happened next, when I was at my most distressed, there was a woman sat on the bus that was currently pulled in at the bus stop.
I’m not going into descriptions here as they do not matter but she was sat on this bus, with another adult and two children while pointing me out to the other woman and the children and laughing at me and making fun of me to them.
At what point does this woman consider that she is essentially teaching children to pick on people for their flaws?
Just because you can’t see mental health, doesn’t mean it isn’t there. I hope that woman never has to experience mental health or anxiety.