I wasn’t going to share this, however, I have always considered myself a mental health advocate and a firm believer in people being able to talk about it.
In the past couple of months, my anxiety has been at an all-time high. I have a lot going on with my mental health. This includes random anxiety attacks which I cannot predict which causes me lots of distress at the time.
Sometimes a trigger for an anxiety attack can be crowds of people. Tonight at about 9pm, I was standing at a bus stop with my Dad after coming out of the cinema waiting for the bus home.
There were people everywhere when I felt that oh too familiar rush to the heart, the temperature and the watching everyone around me thinking they were out to harm me.
Of course, this probably wasn’t the case but anxiety listens to no one. My best option when I’m having an anxiety attack is to get out of that situation. I was unable to do that at this point so I resulted trying to find my own standing place where I could tune into the music on my iPod and find a mental place to calm down.
Now, just because you can’t see mental health, doesn’t mean it isn’t there. What happened next, when I was at my most distressed, there was a woman sat on the bus that was currently pulled in at the bus stop.
I’m not going into descriptions here as they do not matter but she was sat on this bus, with another adult and two children while pointing me out to the other woman and the children and laughing at me and making fun of me to them.
At what point does this woman consider that she is essentially teaching children to pick on people for their flaws?
Just because you can’t see mental health, doesn’t mean it isn’t there. I hope that woman never has to experience mental health or anxiety.
I bring you another book review that I am very excited to be reviewing! Today I will be reviewing my first ever box set! Yes, that’s right, you heard me!
I will be talking about two books in a box set: Dark Angel & A Child For The Devil. If you like supernatural reads, then this is one for you!
Less than a paragraph in, I can already find myself relating to the main character in the sense of a drunken night out which I have later regretted after the hang over it caused me but which I would still induce to have a good time.
The first person that the character in the prologue meets seems dodgy. There is something about her that straight away you get the sense that something doesn’t quite add up. Bearing in mind what the covers (above) look like, your mind begins to whirl with many different possibilities as to who she could be & what her intentions are. None of them good.
And this is correct. The author tells a story that is easy to follow but without giving too much away until you develop further into the story.
One thing I love right from the start is that the box set contains facts about disappearances that make you think about the world. You can tell that Conrad researched the area well before writing the series.
The story falls together easily & gives a real, honest insight into the way an author feels when writing a book even though it is fiction.
Through the box set, we see the sad reality that is true in the modern word: people often get judged on their looks rather than their abilities & personalities. Something I believe we need to work on changing.
Another sad reality that is present is the sad image of what was considered a mental health hospital in the past. I’m glad so much has changed in the treatment of mental health but we still have so much change to go!
I relate to the main character in the sense that I also can’t tolerate bullshit. I know when someone is lying & won’t stand for it. I once told a teacher in high school to piss off after she falsly accused me of lying then when I proved I wasn’t, she was rude to me. She never made that mistake again! However, my high school disobedience is a different story.
The story highlights how easy it would be to pin a crime on someone who didn’t do it simply based on their looks.
The scariest bit about this box set is that all the facts add up. As I am reading, I have been checking a few of the facts on the internet & they are correct. It makes you question how much fiction is actually in this book which sends a shiver down my spine.
In a way, I begin to worry as if I will now be hunted down after reading this (half jokingly.)
Even the possibility that the goth music & culture influences young people are something which is claimed by many people in this day & age, whether to believe them is another story.
This was quite a scary box set to read as so much indicated to the truth, however, it was really interesting & easy to follow.
Creative, that’s what I am, Creative that’s always my plan. From as long as I can remember, I have been very creative. I have been full of a vivid imagination that would often get me in trouble as a child when I am caught looking out the window & looking as though I am not paying attention. My teacher would then ask me to tell her what she just said & I would recite it perfectly clearly showing I was listening but daydreaming at the same time.
I’ve always loved drawing, from when I was a young child I would sit in appointments drawing fireworks. I was a quiet child & for some reason, drawing fireworks at every single appointment comforted me. My psychologist then linked this to my feelings & said that it signified the way I was feeling which I guess was probably true.
I remember in the second year of high school, we were given a drawing task where we had to fill up a picture using small dots. Most the students made massive dots & didn’t really care. However, I spent hours on this till it was just perfect & even got praised for my effort when I handed in my homework!
Roll on to either third or fourth year of high school & this sees me joining a regular art group of which I have now been attending ever since! I enjoy getting to make all sorts of art from prints to canvas bags to clay work.
It doesn’t just stop there. Throughout school, I got involved in the radio station based right outside my school. From there, I discovered a love & passion for creating content on radio. I have never been comfortable trying to put myself in front of a camera, but I can most certainly put myself behind a microphone!
This has followed to me then going to college followed by the University. I have since organised a journalism competition which allowed me to work with companies such as The Daily Record, The Scottish Sun & the National Union of Journalists. Through this, I was able to put my creative skills to the test when designing promotional material & other resources for the competition!
I run a regular radio show, I write this blog & have applied my creative skills to all aspects of my life. I am also an event steward for a security company now. I am a creative person through & through & couldn’t just settle for a boring administration job where I didn’t get to use my skills!
Now, this is probably going to be a once in a lifetime blog post. I don’t tend to ever post about politics & I don’t even have an interest in politics. I only know the bare minimum about politics, enough to know that it will affect me in some way. The way I voted is reflective of the only party I believe in, SNP: Scottish National Party.
Now, this isn’t a blog post to argue about the right & wrong of each party. This blog post is also not intending to cause argument, simply just state my opinion.
We live in a harsh world, but I was hoping that I would wake up to the positive news: that the Conservatives hadn’t won. I got fed up watching the election, so went to my bed early to wake up to the devastating news. Not only that, I suddenly realised the lengths the Conservatives would go to stay in power.
Now, I honestly think Conservatives were the wrong choice: there seems to be something for everyone from every walks of life which this party are doing against the people of the UK. Yet, there were still people who voted for them.
DUP – a party those not in Ireland will know little about, but here’s just a few eye-openers on the situation. The way I look at this situation: this is a party which are discriminatory against people with disabilities as well as gay rights, a party in which Theresa May is happy to get into bed with just to keep her position in power. There are a lot of things they just don’t tell us as they know we wouldn’t like them & that’s the sad truth.
This honestly makes me question: what type of government are we supporting if we allowed this to continue? It’s like some people in the UK want to make themselves suffer.
Conservatives you ask? The conservatives who paid Microsoft money to continue to run patches for Windows XP just so their computers didn’t need to be upgraded? In reality, it would have been cheaper in the long run. The conservatives who want to take away free school meals for our countries children? The conservatives who while under Margaret Thatcher took away free milk for the UK’s children?
The conservatives who changed junior doctor contracts to impose longer working hours on them? The same party who introduced Snooper’s Charter which allowed them to hack your iPhone, laptop and other personal technological equipment without your knowledge?
Not forgetting, the plans to get rid of maintenance grants for university students, therefore holding back many students & even forcing them into not going to university. They also significantly cut disability benefits which would take 200,000 people off the disability registers. In 2015, the conservatives committed electoral fraud by unlawfully breaching election spending.
Under a Tory government, British workers have received an increasing amount of fall in wage value. Since 2010, the Tories have been constantly taking money out of the NHS budget, therefore, causing many hospitals & hospital services to close. Then NHS recruitment process is also declining under the conservatives as well as disabled people suffering massively under the Tories.
Since 2010, child poverty has risen by 400,000 children which are set to increase with even more child welfare cuts under a Tory government. If Tory plans continue, the poorer you are, the harsher the cuts will be. Those with children will be hit even harder than this.
Not to mention, housing will become more unaffordable, more expensive rail services, schools will become even more underfunded & lifetimes of unpayable debt for students when they graduate. Fire services are also seeing massive cuts, therefore putting us at risk of even more house fire deaths. Having known people who survived house fires, this disgusts me. Nearly forgetting the policing cuts putting us in even more danger of crime.
Our government could also say bye bye to our basic human rights if this drama continues. Are you forgetting that bedroom tax that families can’t even afford? Are you forgetting they are getting rid of housing benefit for 18-21-year-olds? School funding cuts? The benefit cuts for the sick who are unable to work?
Another one that makes me beyond angry: Rape victims now have to PROVE their ordeal? Yes, you heard me right. Really? This is the party some of us voted for OUR government time & time again! They are being forced to provide an 8-page form with references & evidence otherwise they are being told they are lying about the rape? This makes me beyond outraged!
Apparently, £450,000 thousand pound homes are affordable for us all, you heard me right. They have also got rid of inheritance tax for the rich & plan laws which make hospitals check for passports then charge up-front if not eligible for free NHS.
They have also drastically reduced the number of mental health beds available in a crisis. I know for a fact that if I hadn’t been admitted to hospital & got the help I desperately needed that I most likely would not be alive today. Therefore, this is putting people’s lives at risk.
After all this, I am completely shocked that people would still want to vote for this party. I didn’t know all this information before this blog post, but it wasn’t difficult to find.
Before you vote in the next election, PLEASE do your research. Do you research about all the party’s before you make a decision as what you are being told directly by the parties isn’t always the honest truth & in recent years they have certainly gone back to a lot of things which were promised!
This blog post was never intended to start an argument, the aim was to hopefully enlighten some people’s opinions on politics & the conservative party & to make people think more about who & what they are voting in favour of.
Any negative comments will be removed & not allowed on my blog.
As soon as I looked at the cover for ‘promised lies’ I was drawn in & knew it was a book I wanted to read. There is so much going on in the picture that I want to know the story. I love stories (if you haven’t already guessed from all the book reviews!)
Right from the beginning, there is a strong lead for the start of the novel which entices me in & makes me want to read more. The first chapter starts with a bang of an opener with a murder. Starting with such a strong scene makes me want to continue reading.
Less than 4 chapters in, the fact that I’d hate to be a forensic person or someone who has to work with bodies when a murder occurs or someone dies. I know they will be well-paid jobs, but I feel something like that would completely traumatise me! I also don’t think being a police officer would be the job for me so I highly commend people that do that as a career! However, I do enjoy reading this genre of book (or else I wouldn’t be doing this review now would I?)
In chapter 4, we are introduced to a new character called Ursula & I am instantly picturing Ursula out the Little Mermaid despite never actually watching that film as a child (YES I didn’t just say that to make your mouth drop to the floor, its true!)
From the way in which this character is described, I am reminded even more of the Little Mermaid with wording like “Ursula’s hair, leeched of all vitality, appeared dry and lifelessly waved wildly in all directions.” This makes me think directly of Ursula out the Little Mermaid who has Octopus legs & who’s hair sprays out in multiple directions.
I don’t know if this was intentional but now that image will stick in my mind, not that it’s a bad thing though. It gives me something to connect with from my memory in a surprising book moment I wouldn’t find myself connecting with.
The way in which Ursula is treated like a child even though she is 24, so legally an adult reminds me of my childhood. As a child, I wasn’t allowed to join in most conversations with my Dad or grandparents since I was told I was too young. It seems kind of sad & strange that this adult is getting treated in the same way by her elders, especially when she should be considered an adult. Perhaps it’s because these people weren’t her parents but instead her aunt & uncle so she maybe wasn’t very close with them.
I love how the story progresses a little bit at a time just giving you enough so you can’t predict the future too far in advance. I imagine this is how the evidence would be gathered by real police officers.
The book has many aspects which make it realistic sounding & like it is being conducted in the same way in which a real crime would be conducted.
‘Promised Lies’ didn’t end in the way I was expecting it to end & left some questions I had still unanswered by the end of the book. However, it was gripping & held my attention from the start!
I know I have been away from my blog for a while, but I am back with a new review!
From the beginning, this book gives me a strong sense of what Abby & her friend are like as people. The author includes just enough description to get a true sense & understanding of the character’s personalities without giving too much away.
The book can be seen as surprisingly accurate to the world today even from the time it was written. A terrorist attack in London & Brexit are claimed to be the latest newspaper news & there was another attack recently unfortunately & Brexit is still being discussed. It’s upsetting how we can still relate this to what is going on today!
I think the fact I’ve been surrounded with popular slang for so long is growing on me. I saw the word “dabbing” & thought it meant the slang of dabbing! I blame Emma Blackery for that!!
The story is pretty easy to follow with newspaper articles written in italics & flashbacks being clearly dated by when they happened. I love how right from the start, we get an era of mystery & don’t know what is going to happen in later chapters. We are drawn in by the fact that something had clearly happened to Philippa but we don’t know what so will have to keep reading to find this out.
I love the way in which many themes are contributed into ‘The Silence’ which keeps the story fresh & interesting & makes the reader want to continue reading. I also really like the old fashioned theme going on here in the way in which the villa is described & the talk of things such as walkmans. It reminds me of my childhood & makes me feel slightly nostalgic.
When some books begin to switch between the past & present in their story, it can get really messy. However, in ‘the silence’ it seems completely natural & isn’t too difficult to follow.
The sense of Abby keeping secrets from her husband really strikes a bell in life. It highlights the fact that, one small action or person could come along & change the whole situation & threaten everything the secret keeper has known. It just goes to show, keeping secrets is risky & never a good idea.
I find myself connecting with Philippa’s dad in the sense that writing is difficult. A dream of mine is to actually write my own book but every idea I have had so far, I have started then exhausted the idea & given up on it. I have finally pieced together chapter titles for a self-help book I want to write aimed at teenagers but yet again not completely sure if it will span out an actual book!
I have written many stories which I have then scrapped in my desire to write my own fiction book & have therefore come to the decision that I would be better off starting with a book filled with short stories with my ideas. As a result of knowing how difficult it is, I relate to Philippa’s dad.
When reading this book, I can actually begin to imagine what the characters would sound like & even have images inside my head of who would play them. I feel this shows that the story is conveyed in an effective way because I can identify with the characters & gives me a strong visual imagine. It is written so effortlessly that anyone reading it can begin to imagine if this was to play out in a real life situation.
As the plot thickens, suspicions draw into my mind about who the second skeleton was. In my mind, I come to the possibility of three different people it could be. I feel this makes for a strong story as it allows me to come to my own ideas about what could happen while not knowing anything. Nothing is given away, the suspense is kept up, therefore, I am intrigued to read more to find out if my hunches are actually true.
The ending was completely sudden & unexpected, however, it was timed & planned perfectly. Something happens right at the end of the book that would spoil the book if I was to tell you, but what I can say is that it is a game changer. All along, there were new questions which presented themselves the more I read.
The way ‘the silence’ ends is well thought out. By this point in the book, a lot of questions had been answered. However, there were a few left unanswered. The ending speculates into something without giving you a solid fact & its timed so well that it could effectively lead onto another book if the author decided to write one.
Disclaimer: I received this product free of charge to try out with no obligation to leave a review but decided to do one. All views are my own.
Firstly I was quite impressed with the quick delivery with it arriving only a few days after I ordered it with me also getting to choose what day I wanted it delivered. The one downside about delivery was how wide a delivery window it was. The box was estimated between 8am-7pm which isn’t really ideal for someone with a busy lifestyle which is the type of people who would mostly order this product. However, the product arrived around 12 pm so I wasn’t waiting the whole day thankfully!
Once opening the box I noticed how everything was packed carefully, kept separate with a clear instruction of where everything was to go. The meat and products that were to go in the fridge even came inside a special bag with ice packs to keep everything fresh which I was really impressed with.
I love the fact how I was allowed freedom in choosing the menus that I was interested in as well as the option to choose how many people I was feeding. All the vegetables arrived fresh as well which is a massive plus. I love how the recipe cards were hole punched in case you wanted to put them in a binder.
One thing I will say is, the timing it said on each recipe to cook was less time than it actually takes, however, I put that down to the fact I hadn’t made the recipes before. When I cook something for the first time, it takes me a lot longer than it normally would. You also don’t really know how much food you will produce when making it until the end. Both recipes were enough food for two people but if you only are cooking for one person like I was, it will fill you up if you have it with nothing else with it. Onto the recipes.
Recipe One ~ Easy Lamb Biryani:
It’s no surprise by this point that one of the recipes I picked was Indian and the other Chinese, let’s talk about the Indian first.
Just looking at the recipe card made my mouth water. The instructions were fairly easy to follow and step-by-step which is perfect for a novice cook like me. I began by peeling and dicing the onions and for once my eyes didn’t well up doing this so I guess there’s another plus.
I really loved this meal although it looked nothing like the picture and took a lot longer than 15 minutes for me to cook and prepare.
It was really tasty and filling and all the ingredients were fresh with it being an easy to follow recipe.
Recipe Two ~ Hoisin Meatballs and Chinese sesame rice:
Now, this was the recipe I learnt the most from. Firstly, I learnt how to peel ginger, who would have known that the job becomes so much easier using a spoon? To be honest I haven’t really cooked much from scratch before and when I have I’ve never used ginger.
I also learnt that it’s possible to grate the garlic. Yes, you heard me correct. This recipe requires you to grate the garlic. It was easy enough, although garlic really does stink. I love the taste of things such as garlic bread but I never till now realised how smelly it is when you are cooking with it from scratch!
This is also the recipe which has awoken my hunger for cooking meals from scratch (like what I did there?) Ever since cooking this recipe, I have been pinning recipes like mad and been researching how to make some of my already favourite foods from scratch.
You don’t have to be a food lover to fall in love with this subscription box. Such a wonderfully varied selection of recipes to choose from which are being updated every week. You also get the option of how many people you are cooking for: 2 or 4.
It would, however, be good if there was an option to cook a one person meal for those that either lives alone or don’t share similar taste buds to their family members, therefore, having to cook separate meals anyway. I suppose you could half the ingredients and kept the rest for a separate time or freeze half of the food but it’s not the same. It requires even more effort.
I’ve never been a fan of ginger previously but I didn’t taste the difference in this meal. The spiced hoisin sauce and meatballs were simply divine. However, I wasn’t so fond of the Chinese Sesame Rice. I thought that adding lettuce to rice was a bit of an odd call.
One thing that wasn’t so clear was when it came to coating the meatballs in the spiced hoisin sauce it tells you to heat a pan and then add the spiced hoisin sauce and meatballs to this to coat the meatballs in the sauce. When I tried to do this, instantly the sauce started fizzing. It could have been more clear to let you know if you should remove the pan from the heat once hot to add the meatballs and sauce or what otherwise it started hissing and essentially burning.
Other than this I loved the meatballs but perhaps if I was to make this recipe in future I would make it without the Chinese sesame rice because I really didn’t think this rice added anything special to the meal and I didn’t really like it.
All in all, this was a memorable experience, has taught me a few things about cooking as well as sparking an interest in me to cook from scratch more often in the future.
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I did plan to have today’s blog post up at the start of the week but due to having no internet at home I’ve only just uploaded it. Therefore, as a special treat I am now uploading a second blog post for today! The daily prompt is Lifestyle so today I will be revealing an insight into my student lifestyle most days.
What morning? Students don’t get up till at least 12pm and even that’s pushing it. Unless I have something important I need to be rushing to, I will most likely wake up between 1pm-4pm. This is the reason why I ended up either late to a lot of university classes or not turning up. If it got to 15 minutes past the hour the class was supposed to start then I most likely wouldn’t turn up. I am often seen making most of my appointments/etc for the afternoon so I can have a lie in.
When I finally make it out of my bed I am more often that not watching Netflix, playing online games or some other fun activity. I often leave all those uni assignments until last minute. I tend to waste away most the day doing nothing. Oh to be a student.
If I have an assignment due the following day this is when I start it, or in other words finish it. I stay up the whole night in order to finish the assignment then submit it right before the due time.
If I don’t have an assignment, I get my dinner and then end up yet again watching Netflix, or blogging or doing something fun while leaving those emails I need to reply to until last minute like everything else. Perhaps this isn’t healthy.
This was meant just as a fun “I do nothing” piece. I suppose I am slightly more productive in reality. Depends on the day really. Like last Tuesday night I had an important meeting for three hours. Just depends on the day.
I planned to have a blog post up since Tuesday but I’ve had no internet since Tuesday. The last time the internet went down was when Cheryl released limited edition signed copies of her last album which of course was all sold out by the time the internet was back up. This time? I was expecting an email to give me the details about the VIP upgrades for Emma Blackery. The email was getting sent out on Tuesday, and the VIP upgrades were going on sale the next day. As a result, I ended up getting a bus into university at 5.30am on Wednesday just to check my emails in case the VIP upgrade went on sale really early. LUCKILY, I managed to get my VIP upgrade by using my friends internet when it went on sale at 5pm on Wednesday BUT I could of missed out and I did everything I could to make sure this wasn’t an option.
I bet you can sense my frustration! This got me thinking how much we actually do rely on the internet after all. You don’t realise how important having internet is in your life until moments like these. Also on Tuesday, I was late to an important meeting for my new volunteering job and since it’s new I didn’t have anyone’s phone numbers. Therefore, the only option was…you guessed it: the Facebook group we were all in. Luckily, my bus had free wifi so that I could connect, let them know I was going to be late and ask which room it was being held in. A classic example of internet reliance.
Further, I could have missed out on a meet and greet with Emma Blackery because BT internet was and still is down. To continue my bad luck, I was supposed to be helping a friend with her college graded unit on Wednesday. She needs to interview people on a specific topic and I said I’d help. I have no call time, texts or internet on my phone currently so I couldn’t phone my friend to confirm the details therefore I had no idea what time I would be meeting her. Also, in order to top up my phone, I either need to go to the shop and get a voucher or I need to connect to wifi in order to do it from my phone. Do you understand my dilemma? It was nearly 9.30pm at night on Tuesday and I had just finished my dinner after a productive meeting so was not intending to leave the house again that night. It is moments like these I get envious of overnight buses in London, whereas here I need to wait till about 4/5am to get a bus. If I’d have gotten the bus back into university, I would have most likely missed the last bus home again. Damn you public transport in Scotland!
I also had plenty of emails I needed to be responding to which I was going to do but had to put on hold. I also needed to log my hours for my volunteer job and communicate with the team over Facebook not to mention communicate with countless other people all over the internet. I had also hoped to blog and update social media for my blog which is another thing I was unable to do.
Also, what do you do for entertainment when your internet is down? Stare at walls? No seriously, you take so much for granted when you have working internet and you forget that previous generations had to go about life without internet and without cell phones.
Normally at that time of night after I’d done all my work/communicating/what I need to do I would either be playing games over the internet, watching Youtube, blogging or watching Netflix. There are countless other forms of entertainment I also do, but these are normally all over the internet. I had written this blog post on a word document and aimed to post it on Wednesday. This was also delayed because of the internet being down. As I upload this blog post, I am in university using their internet. BT are supposed to be fixing my internet this afternoon and here’s hoping they do.
I also listen to most my music on spotify so therefore ended up hunting out all my CD’s of which I haven’t used for a long time due to the use of spotify.
I have never been a strong lover of Perfume. Throughout my childhood and growing up I was always a tomboy. In my teenage years, my grandparents got into a habit of buying me a really nasty smelling perfume every Christmas for years on end. I, of course, pretended to like it as I didn’t want to upset them. It would then go into the back of the wardrobe to be forgotten about never to be seen again.
I don’t know if them buying me the perfumes was a last ditch attempt at trying to get me to act more girly but it didn’t work. It wasn’t until my later teenage years when I began to like girly things all of my own accord. I was never going to be persuaded to act a certain way by anyone, family or not.
Perhaps it was the awful perfume from my grandparents that put me off perfume for life but even today I don’t tend to use perfume. However, I do make the rare exception when it comes to Kylie Minogue and Cheryl.
If you don’t know, I am a MASSIVE fan of both Kylie and Cheryl. My aunt gave me two Kylie perfumes when I was younger that I didn’t use, but once I actually became a fan of her I began to use them and liked the scents.
The same can be said about Cheryl when she released each of her three perfumes I, of course, had to buy them. I even donated £100 to her charity as part of a competition once to get a signed bottle of her perfume. It may seem mad but I have a strong support for my role models/idols/inspirations and firmly believed in what she was doing with her charity. That and the fact I loved the scents.
Apart from this, I have never really been a perfume person, I just see it as a waste of money if I am brutally honest. I will continue to use my Kylie and Cheryl perfumes and will probably re-purchase when I run out. However, I won’t pursue the interest in buying other perfumes as I am a student without much money and don’t think it is something I can justify spending my money on.