Posted in Music

Tea For Two – Dirt by Emma Blackery

A new blog post, Wow I know this is becoming rare even though I tried (and failed) at blogging every week.

Today’s post is gonna be a reaction to a new BOP (yes I know that typical reactions are done in videos but I’m not wanting to start a YouTube channel for the one & only video. Or would it be?)

I’m not gonna lie, I failed at staying up until midnight for Dirt due to being ill. However, I woke up at about 3am and couldn’t go back to sleep until I’d listened at least once.

If you don’t know what Dirt is, it’s the sassy new single by Emma Blackery. It involves a lot of receipts, tea, and er….lemon biting?

I will say now: NEVER listen to a new song for the first time through the shitty speaker on your phone, it probably won’t sound great.

That being said, surprise surprise, I wasn’t impressed when I listened through my phone’s speakers at 3am but considering I could barely hear the audio, you can probably guess why.

When I woke up for the day, I listened to Dirt properly & WOAH LORD I love it and it has now been on repeat for the last hour but I have a feeling it’s been on longer and I’ve lost track of time.

Blackery headlined her first UK tour in 2016 and I’ve been proud to watch her grow and grow since then. You know, when someone peaks in their career & you just can’t imagine them getting any better?

Well Emma does, she just keeps getting better and better and honestly, I don’t know how that girl still has energy after everything she’s been putting into her music as of late.

I couldn’t pinpoint a favourite lyric from this BOP but let’s just say I’m in love with the whole chorus and the rest of the song. Can I just say that every lyric is my favourite? No? Okay? Is that cheating? Do I care? No.

Not only is the music video sassy as hell, the song has also stormed its way into the Itunes chart with it being at 21 the last time I checked.

There’s a lyric that goes “I’m going somewhere new, somewhere you’ve never been too” and Emma was damn right, straight to the charts.

On another note: When I really listen, really listen to the lyrics, the first thing I want to do more than anything is to private message this video to every single person that has ever screwed me over.

You can call me petty as hell, but at least I’m honest right? A very relatable bop well worth checking out. Blackery was already one to watch but you better keep watching!

My reaction? 10/1000 (that is a scale right?) I highly recommend buying/streaming Dirt NOW!

Posted in Life, Thoughts

Take, Take, Take

I know I said I was going to try blog every week & that new blog posts would typically go live on Monday’s, yes I can confirm I’ve not stuck with another decision!

Want to know why I never make new years resolutions? This is why I can never seem to stick to them!

On another note: what goes to say that everything will suddenly change on one day of the year cause it’s a new year? Change is a working progress, it happens over time.

That brings me to the topic of today’s blog post. Today, I am reflecting on one of the many things I’ve learned in the last 2-3 years. Below is a statement I put on social media in the last few days:


The above is an accurate description of something I’ve experienced in the last 2-3 years which has finally made me realise the sad truth of life that you can do everything & anything for someone for them to still toss you aside when they have no use for you.

There are also people who I no longer even talk to who still use and take from me even though I cut them out my life. The sad reality is: even when you cut someone out your life, they can still find a way to take the trash you left in the past & use it in order to make life easier for themselves & use it to somehow help progress their lives/careers.

“The best thing I did was leaving you in the past” – an accurate phrase to sum up certain people. You can’t change people, but you can change yourself. The older I get, the better I get at leaving behind toxic people & those who purposely screw me over.

I am thankful to everyone that has helped me, however, I am ALSO thankful to everyone that has hurt me or screwed me over. I firmly believe that all life experiences have something you can learn from them.

Some people you have to go through hell with before you can see the sunshine, others teach you a lesson while stabbing you in the back.

I have become a stronger person through the people who have hurt me & have become much better at seeing through people’s bullshit.

However, I have also met some amazing individuals who have shown me nothing but love but have taught me life lessons & helped me grow. A shoutout to those amazing women on this international women’s day.

Even the positive & good experiences have something you can learn & use to improve yourself, you just need to know where to look.

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Posted in Music

Nobody Sees The Show Until Nadine Says So!

Let me tell you a story, sit down, are you comfortable? Do you have your tea? Good, let’s begin then! (Okay I know, cheesy AF opening line but stick with me.)

A girl around 12/13 years of age hadn’t been happy for a long time, at least three years. One day, while watching the X Factor, this girl laughs in a rare moment.

The moment? Her name was Cheryl Cole, but these days you will find her as Cheryl Tweedy. That girl was me, and this was a big moment in my life.

Ever since then, I’ve been a massive Girls Aloud fan and although in recent years I haven’t followed the girls as much as I used to, I will never forget and they will always mean something to me.

With Nadine’s new music, that spark (where am I going?) that reminds me why I love the girls individually just as much as I loved them when they were together.

That’s why I was more than excited when Nadine announced a tour where she would be performing former Girls Aloud songs as well as her new songs which are on fire just like the girls (pun most certainly intended.)

2018 is shaping up to be a great year music wise with so many bands/artists I love bringing out new albums or tours which I am very much excited for.

And, what’s more, exciting than the fact that I have VIP for Nadine’s tour? Yes, I am still not over the fact that I will finally get to meet one of the girls who has helped shape the person I am today.

Nadine is lighting it on fire (perhaps I should quit while I’m ahead) with her new songs, Go To Work & Girls on Fire and I am excited for what is to come for her in 2018.

Listen to Nadine’s latest, Girls on Fire here:

Or how about Go To Work here:

Now, welcome back. If you’re as buzzing as I am about this new music, Nadine’s going on a UK tour in May and you can get tickets here for a tour that most certainly WILL be on fire!

This one’s for my girls they’re on fire!

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Posted in Thoughts

A Break From Blogging

When I started this blog, I wanted to blog regularly, it was an outlet for me to make sense of my feelings and what’s going on in my life. However, there was a spell when I spent so much time arranging blogging opportunities with other people that it became more about the deadlines rather than a hobby.

I’m not going to sugar coat it, I lost the meaning of my blog over the last year, my mental health plummeted and I didn’t even know who I was anymore nevermind trying to keep up a presence online focussed on the things I loved.

How can I have a blog about the things I love as a hobby if I don’t even know who I am or what I love? I began to keep track of how long it was between blog posts with a constant worry that I wasn’t blogging and that I was giving up on another thing, yet again when I should have just taken a break.

I’ve been speaking a lot recently about thing’s I’ve learned in 2017. Another thing I learned in 2017 is that it’s okay not to be okay and to take a break from things, in fact, things can improve if you take a break from time to time.

When you work in the media, study in media and put yourself in the media, there can be a pressure to keep going. The media industry feels at times like it has to be go-go-go all day long, all week long, all year long.

I’ve watched the people I admire in the public eye get criticised when there’s no video, music, project, whatever it may be from them. I’ve watched people I admire in the media feel pressured to be perfect online or pressured into continuing to create content all year around no matter what.

If you are reading this and are feeling that pressure: It’s okay to take a break from certain things or even everything that you are working on. It’s okay to rethink things, it’s okay to change your end goal.

It was only when I took a break for the most part from this blog in the second half of 2017, I began to breathe properly again without constantly worrying about the next piece of content.

When your passion or hobby becomes a chore that you dread, that’s when it’s time to take a break. It’s better to put your sanity first.

In 2018, I’m not going to chase after every little sponsorship, collab and free products in exchange for a blog post. I was chasing after these things so much that I lost interest in simply blogging about what I was interested in and as a result, I feel my content got significantly worse.

This isn’t a dig at anyone I worked with in 2017 for my blog, not at all. It’s a dig at my past self, yes I enjoyed these opportunities but I put more time into gaining them and less thought into what interested me. 2018 will be a very different year in terms of content.

I’m focussing on myself and what I want and that’s not just blogging-wise. I’m focussing on those career goals I’ve been too scared to pursue and I hope that by the end of 2018 I can actually say I’ve gone after some of my dreams.

I hope to be back to regular blogging in 2018 but one thing the last two years has taught me is that you never know what’s to come, things can change so easily and I think I’m becoming better at adapting to change than I used to be.

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Posted in Thoughts

Why I Don’t Like Christmas

Trigger Warning: Difficult family/death

Just writing the blog title makes me cringe. I feel the pressure that because Christmas is meant to be a happy and joyful time of year for many, that I have no right to voice my opinion about my dislike for Christmas.

With that being said, I remember one of the rules I had when I started this blog: I didn’t want to lie on my own blog. I know the word ‘lies’ is in my blog’s name but it totally wasn’t intended for lying here. It was intended to express the lies I tell myself or more often than not these days: the lies my anxiety tells me. It wasn’t put there to lie to my audience.

A post like this is probably always going to be a bit risky at a time of year which most people love and celebrate so this is why I chose to upload this after Christmas.

I must have stopped enjoying Christmas when I was about 15 years old. I also wouldn’t be surprised if it was the same year when I stopped wanting to celebrate my birthday.

Now, about Christmas: I have never once tried to make others, not like Christmas, I just don’t.

This year is the first year since moving to Scotland that I won’t be going to my grans for Christmas dinner. My gran just isn’t well enough to cook food for four people.

I suppose the first stab in the heart that led to me not enjoying Christmas dates back to 2009. Let’s set the scene: A few days before Christmas, myself and my Dad are excited to see my uncle on our trip to London.

Roll on the 27th December, we are on a train to London, my Dad seems upset but not willing to talk, I know something is wrong.

Once I arrive in London, I get told that my uncle died exactly one day before. You see, my uncle had cancer, he died the day before we were going to visit him. We never even got to say goodbye to someone who was so important to us.

Now, that’s not the only reason I dislike Christmas. Over the years, I have become better at learning the triggers to my mental health. One such trigger is the winter weather. Until Christmas, I can keep myself occupied and I have people to talk to but then on Christmas, everyone I know is having a family day with their family.

My Christmas normally results in my gran getting very drunk and then shouting verbal abuse at me while I am expected to take it and my grandad tells me I have to take it because my gran gives me money for my birthday’s and Christmases.

My gran hasn’t always been the most supportive member of my family, but it comes out the most at Christmas. You can feel free to judge me for being happy I don’t need to spend my Christmas with her if you want but for me, everything in my life hurts the most at Christmas.

There are a lot of other reasons why I don’t like Christmas but then this blog post would become too long to read.

What I’m saying is, if you take one thing from this blog post: please don’t expect that everyone adores Christmas. Some people have lost loved ones, or others have to spend the day miserable. There could be loads of other reasons they just don’t feel comfortable telling you.

Don’t assume it’s because they are a Scrooge that doesn’t like to have fun. Over the years, I’ve tried so hard to love Christmas like everyone else seems to do but that’s not me and that’s not the type of person I feel I can be and please don’t judge me for that.

If you love Christmas, I hope you had an amazing Christmas filled with happy memories and special time with your family. I’m glad that this is a time of year which you enjoy and are happy at but please never try to force others into loving Christmas if they don’t.

Posted in Life

17 Things I Learned in 2017

Another year is over, another year begins. Let’s start the year with what I learned from 2017 since it was certainly a tough year.

  1. A happier life starts when you cut the snakes 🐍 out of your life (AKA the toxic people.)

  2. NEVER sacrifice your happiness for your career.

  3. Just because someone is older than you, doesn’t make them more responsible or more grown up.

  4. Just because someone is older than you, doesn’t mean they have got their life together.

  5. When a toxic person can no longer control you, they will try and control what other people think of you – rise above it.

  6. No need for revenge or being petty towards the people who screw you over, they always get what they deserve.

  7. If someone puts your safety at risk then they are NOT your friend no matter how much you convince yourself they are.

  8. If someone lies to you and then lies some more when you confront them, let them go, they are NOT worth your time.

  9. Don’t actively search for friends and people who care about you. The ones who ACTUALLY care will come looking for you and will find a way to stay.

  10. Hold onto the ones who matter, let go of the snakes 🐍

  11. You can’t change other people’s minds about anything so don’t try.

  12. Toxic people won’t notice that they are hurting you until you cause them some inconvenience, they aren’t worth it.

  13. Stay silent, eventually, other people will see through the snakes 🐍bullshit just like you did and if they don’t, they aren’t worth having around.

  14. My anxiety is NEVER right about ANYTHING. Neither is YOUR anxiety. NEVER LISTEN TO ANXIETY.

  15. Even when you think no one cares about you, there will be someone waiting to prove you wrong.

  16. ALWAYS back up draft blog posts as WordPress has a tendency to delete them after you’ve spent a great deal of time on them.

  17. Your mental health is more important than anything else, put this first, everything else will wait and will improve when you are well.

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Posted in Anxiety/Mental Health/Stress Management

Take Mental Health Seriously

I wasn’t going to share this, however, I have always considered myself a mental health advocate and a firm believer in people being able to talk about it.

In the past couple of months, my anxiety has been at an all-time high. I have a lot going on with my mental health. This includes random anxiety attacks which I cannot predict which causes me lots of distress at the time.

Sometimes a trigger for an anxiety attack can be crowds of people. Tonight at about 9pm, I was standing at a bus stop with my Dad after coming out of the cinema waiting for the bus home.

There were people everywhere when I felt that oh too familiar rush to the heart, the temperature and the watching everyone around me thinking they were out to harm me.

Of course, this probably wasn’t the case but anxiety listens to no one. My best option when I’m having an anxiety attack is to get out of that situation. I was unable to do that at this point so I resulted trying to find my own standing place where I could tune into the music on my iPod and find a mental place to calm down.

Now, just because you can’t see mental health, doesn’t mean it isn’t there. What happened next, when I was at my most distressed, there was a woman sat on the bus that was currently pulled in at the bus stop.

I’m not going into descriptions here as they do not matter but she was sat on this bus, with another adult and two children while pointing me out to the other woman and the children and laughing at me and making fun of me to them.

At what point does this woman consider that she is essentially teaching children to pick on people for their flaws?

Just because you can’t see mental health, doesn’t mean it isn’t there. I hope that woman never has to experience mental health or anxiety.


My Anxiety is like a storm that rages in when it wants without warning.